In my attempt to spread the 'gospel' about Concentation Camps of Canada, my newest book, I decided to create a quiz on Facebook. I was told that a quiz engages people and creates conversation. There is an app on Facebook and I tried it (for free). It was very easy to use and I asked questions related to our understanding of First Nations culture and contributions to Canada/North America. 

I sent out 100 invitations to my friends. Approximately 10% replied and completed the quiz. (Only one answered all the questions correctly.) I consider that a success. The question is what I should do with it? Create another quiz? To what end? Is our primary objective on Facebook and (places like this blog) to increase traffic to ourselves? Does that make me narcissistic or strategic? Is social media generally making us less humble and more self-obsessed? Does it matter?

Many of us fall into one of two groups: pessimists or optimists. The question is whether we choose to be or simply are one of the two.

Personally, I am an introvert and can drift towards melancholy if I'm not careful. Growing up in a positive family, I have learned to reply with 'fantastic' when asked how I'm feeling--even when I feel the opposite. The result is that I genuinely feel that I am 'fantastic' or, at least, positive most of the time.

Now that I am in the world of authorship, I am facing the reality of selling into a marketplace of one million new books per year. I am confident that I have something to add to the 'great conversation' that is humanity but the slow sales can be demoralising. 

Then I look outside and the sun is shining, the rabbits are nibbling on the grass, and I realise that my book sales are irrelevant to the world and my happiness. That, however, is a cerebral realisation. My heart still yearns for more sales!

I received the news that I was to be interviewed live on a Talk Radio show out of Victoria, BC (Canada) last week. I shrugged, thinking that it would be an easy way to promote my book and begin my foray into media outlets as I launch my most recent book, Concentration Camps of Canada. Then I heard that the host actually read the entire book and had prepared questions. I began to feel anxiety. I started preparing my own notes and got quizzed by family members on potential questions. As the deadline for going on air loomed, I heard that the presenter was ill and was replaced by a new guy.  I was disappointed because I thought that the 'new guy' would gloss over the issues and it would be a waste of time. When the time came, the 'new guy' was incredibly well prepared. He asked questions I hadn't anticipated and I forced myself to remain calm. I was given the drive-home slot at 5.30 pm - 6.00 pm. The thirty minutes flew by, interspersed with news, adverts, and fast-talking people. Actual interview time was just over sixteen minutes. It felt like sixteen seconds.

What have I learned? You can never be over-prepared. I also wish I wasn't so congested and jet-lagged, but that is something I couldn't do much about. I also learned that I enjoyed it immensely. I would love to do more interviews, ideally in a more relaxed environment. Being 'live' creates a different intensity as you know your mistakes will not be edited out. For those who are interested, I have edited out the adverts and put it on my YouTube channel (link below). For those who are interested in my book, it is now out!

Last night, I listened to an hour-long explanation of the failings of my most recent writing. I keep moving between genres as I look for the best fit. This time, it was my attempt at 'chick-lit'. I thought it was light and happy with the usual romantic entanglements and a 'happily ever after' finish. Unfortunately, this was not what my new beta-reader told me. She hilighted a fair number of issues I didn't even realise were significant.

Apparently, there is a difference between women's and men's outlook on life. Who would have thought?

I wrote my draft in February and have let it sit in my drawer until now. I will let it sit in my drawer for another couple of months before I attempt to deal with all the points. The good news is that if I manage to address the points raised, my book will be a LOT better.

Here's to finding great beta-readers!

​It is now almost two months since I abandoned my intense (for me) workout schedule. I would row 10km and walk 20km daily in addition to at least four hours of writing. Now, I continue to eat as though I'm exercising but the body knows better. I have also transitioned away from my intense writing schedule. Now, I find my time filled with business and work-related writing. Before, business was relegated to afternoons and only after I had done at least four hours of creative work. Now, it is reversed.

I need a break from a purely creative and contemplative existence. I am enjoying the mundane as it has become fresh for me. It has taken my creativity in another direction: I have written my first children's book. This is very short, but it holds the same level of intense scrutiny of a novel. I won't be publishing this until I have written a half dozen or so. I am also looking for an illustrator. I am following the model of 2,000+ words spread over 32 pages. Ages: 3-5. It is very different from my Man on the Run series (adult audience) or even Concentration Camps of Canada (young adult audience). I am able to now agree with Stephen King that writing isn't a way of life; it is a complement to life. Prior to this, I wouldn't have understood his wisdom.

We'll see how things evolve over the coming months. Will keep you updated via this blog.

My most recent book, Concentration Camps of Canada, is now on NetGalley. A month ago, I had never heard of this site. It is for librarians, publishers, and professional (ie. hard-core) readers to read books before they are published. In the first few hours of being online, it has received over 15 positive votes for the cover artwork. This may not sound like much for people used to hearing about millions of books being sold. For me, it is the greatest compliment to receive positive feedback from fellow writers, professional readers, and possible distributors. It also means that they might actually open (and read) my book!

This is a whole new world for me. I am very excited.

So many of us waste too much precious time pursuing topics that can never be verified or are without answer. I am one of those people. All of my writing seeks to find meaning in a world that is rarely more than indifferent to our existence. Today I unveil the truth.

To achieve this, I will need to restrict the images we talk about in much the way we are restricted in how we think. I will use two-dimensional objects to describe a three-dimensional world (I’ll get to the additional dimensions another time).

Let’s play monopoly. You can see the board on the table. You can choose where we sit. You can include any of your friends or family at the table. Visualise the table and the monopoly board. Good. Can you feel your elbows on the table or are you sitting back in your chair, quietly arranging your title deeds and money? Either way, we are going to play monopoly.

For some reason, one of our guests pulls out a deck of cards. We continue playing monopoly for a few rounds before she starts dealing cards to each of us. We know her as someone who is quirky, so we smile and nod and continue playing monopoly.

But, soon, we realise that she is not playing around. She is serious. We ask her what the heck she’s doing.
“I’m trying to transcend this game; trying to get to the essence of what monopoly is all about,” she says.
You and I continue to play monopoly, despite our quirky guest. Our other guests start playing cards and monopoly at the same time. Soon, another version of the card game is introduced and we join in. It doesn’t take long before we are all playing monopoly and multiple types of card games.
We convince ourselves that we have transcended monopoly and are exploring the essence of what all games are.

The reality: we are not playing monopoly. We are flaying about, busying ourselves with additional tasks to fill the emptiness of the game. By adding complexities, we convince ourselves that we are understanding the subtle nature of game theory, chaos theory, luck, chance, and even God.

We aren’t.

We may be multi-tasking, but we are not playing monopoly. Nor are we only playing poker, canasta, bridge, or any other card game. To play monopoly, we must follow the rules. To play poker, we must follow the rules. Yes, we can evolve and create a new game. But, it would no longer be monopoly or poker.
There is nothing to transcend in monopoly. Likewise in poker. They are what they are.
We are all confined within our boundaries. Any sense of transcendence or elevation into the spiritual realm is really the leverage of assets within our existing boundary.

Example: Flying humans

The dreamer invents a flying machine. It is the leverage of our intellect to break things down and create new things. The new things are made with very definitive purposes. Like us, all created things are limited.
The flying machine can leverage its position through optics or weapons. This is not transcendence. It is only the application of other boundary-bound items.

A symbiosis is created when sufficient amounts of these boundary-bound items co-exist. In nature, this is witnessed through evolution.

For the unbelievers of this boundary-bound existence, this new ‘life’ is described as a miracle and is ascribed to God. Evolution and the addition of symbiotic boundary-bound elements is no more a miracle than the current smart phones and the interconnectivity within its circuitry and other online devices. Both may be described as miracles. Both are still boundary-bound.

What about God and our spirit’s ability to connect to the infinite?

In the Tom Hanks' movie Big, there is a scene where Tom Hanks' character is sitting in a boardroom of executives who are presenting toys the company was considering buying/marketing. Hanks is actually a young teenage boy who got his wish to be 'big' and, while outwardly he was an adult, he remained a child inside. The toy being presented made no sense to him and he raised his hand when 'any questions' was asked. His question? "I don't get it." The result? The other executives realised that the toy being presented was vacuous and lacked any fun element. Naturally, this set up the antagonism between him and the executive and the romantic interest. But I don't want to go down that particular rabbit hole.

I haven't posted any vlogs in the last couple of months for a simple reason: I don't get it. Yes, I understand the importance of a presence across various media platforms. Yes, I understand the arguments we, as authors, are told. But, I just don't get it.

I am not having fun.

This extends to Twitter and Facebook. I have now joined Instagram. I joined because I'm expected to be there. I added the stream to my Hootsuite program and I assume my missives are sent into the ether to be ignored along with the rest of the noise out there.

I wonder whether this is my fault--for not sharing more personal thoughts or emotions. Perhaps if I open up, the world will open up to me. I share my thoughts and receive the same thing: indifference or polite 'likes' as people maintain contact. It is not that different to the almost imperceptible nod or smile that we share with commuters we never speak to yet see on a daily or weekly basis.

As I write this, I am thinking that perhaps that's all these social platforms have become: curated commuter trains. With that image in mind, I begin to 'get it'. But I'm still not having fun.

In terms of my vlogs, I think about the hundreds of millions of dollars Hollywood executives spend in making movies--just to garner our attention for an hour and a half (or so). Perhaps I need to 'up my game' and make an effort to put on a more slick presentation. Then I think about people like Amal Clooney. Yes, she is the wife of George, but she is also an amazing human rights barrister. When you google her, what comes up? What she wore, how she looks, and where she's going (glitzy parties or beach appearances). Amongst this noise is the work she does highlighting genocide amongst the Kurds (and Yazidis). She also represents Julian Assange, founder of Wikileaks. Pretty cool stuff. She says that a lot of good work happens behind the scenes away from the cameras and media. But, that being said, she also acknowledges that her being married to GC provides her with a platform to spread her message. 

That, I get.

How is it that I, as a Canadian, can allow a situation to continue where fellow Canadians are not allowed to own their own home--by law? Unless my fellow Canadians are not Canadians? Because they are First Nations and live on Reserves? Does that make them on par with under-aged minors? Or are they not human, because even minors are provided some form of ownership by way of beneficial ownership, residual ownership, and so on. Minors eventually grow up and legal ownership is transferred to them. 

If I was to point to one thing that continues to enslave our Indigenous peoples, it would be their inability to own their own land or their own home on Reserves. Without ownership, capitalism has no way of taking hold; prosperity will always be a dream. There can't be a mortgage without ownership. No lease. No licence. No security can be given, so no funding can ever be put in place. No infrastructure will ever be invested.

Instead, we are told that the federal government will take care of the Indians pursuant to the Indian Act. Calling our First Nations Indians is like saying the world remains flat. At the very least, Canada should rename the legislation. We are not in India. By 'taking care of Indians', the government means granting money--an allowance--that is insufficient to do much more than foster dependence. All of the programmes that Canadians feel are unfair--those that provide favourable grants to Indians--are destined to fail. Why? Because the underlying premise of grants, money, and entrepreneurship requires an understanding of ownership.

I love Canada. It is an amazing country with unlimited potential in the coming decades. What I don't understand is why it is so difficult for us to come to a peaceful resolution with the ancestors of those who helped us found this great land? We even named our country after an extinct tribe's word for land. (The name was originally the Saint-Lawrence Iroquoian word Kanata, meaning 'settlement', 'village', or 'land'. The Saint-Lawrence Iroquaians are now extinct.)
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I am not, by nature, a civil rights type of person (whatever that means). I get on with my life and I try to leave others be. However, this type of behaviour by me and other Canadians is the cause of this continued injustice. I have decided that, going forward, I will be part of the solution.

​Watch this space.

In complex systems, knowledge has a way of messing up predictions. The more we know about the likely future, the more we adjust our behaviour. The more we adjust, the more the future adjusts. It is not like the weather--it will either be sunny, rainy, or variations of wind, humidity, and moisture (in frozen or liquid form) regardless of whether we put on our Sunday best or slug it out at home in sweatpants.

The more we are told (as authors) to write blogs, the more we (as authors) write blogs. The result: an explosion of material online by earnest writers trying to demonstrate their bona fides to the world. For the diligent reader, these are golden times. For the lazy (like me), I end up reading less. The search is not worth the discovery.

We have all been given the same map towards social media nirvana. And we are all treading the same (or similar) paths towards that end. Podcasts, email lists, blogs, vlogs, giveaways, competitions, PR, paid and unpaid guerrilla marketing, and so on. We want to present the best images of ourselves and be helpful to others--hoping that, by helping others, we help ourselves.

It feels like camp leaders have taken over the world!

My personality walks away from these types of interactions. I am not interested in gaming the system. I have created an online presence and I will put my thoughts/products 'out there'. However, I don't wish to cross the particular Rubicon that permanently changes me from who I am in order to sell a few books. That being said, this is what I feel like now. Ask me again in six months!